I was asked today to do a talk in South Carolina next month. I got so excited about doing the talk that I really didn’t think about how to get there.
I like to avoid flying when possible. When I went to Denver last month I took the train. That turned out to be a terrible idea, but it was an interesting experience.
South Carolina is about 900 miles away. When I was a kid we used to drive to Nashville. Driving seems doable.
The reason for this post is I want to talk about my car.
I have owned one car my whole life. I got a brand new Subaru Impreza back in 1998. I have had this car for half of my life.
This car has been through hell. I crashed it three times in the first few years I owned it. It had a nice respite for a while, but I crashed it again back in January. Since the car was sixteen years old, my husband decided it wasn’t worth getting the body fixed.
I have been pressured by my family to replace my car. I am being told it is no longer reliable and that it is going to be hard, but I need to let it go.
My car has been absolutely reliable for sixteen years. I feel bad for not treating my car better when I was first learning to drive. I am a superstitious person and I am afraid if I replace it before it dies that I will have bad karma. (Pun intended.)
I am willing to accept that I need to replace the old girl, but I would really like to have one last adventure with her. I would like to drive her to this conference in October.
I plan to do whatever I need to do to make sure the car is reliable and won’t break down in the middle of nowhere. I plan to make arrangements to make sure I know what to do if the car breaks down on the side of the road.
I know this is an incredibly stupid thing to do, but I love my car and I want to have this time to remember my time with her and to let her go.
I will have the car looked over before I go. If there is any question of the car’s reliability, I will not take it.
I know I am being overly sensitive about an inanimate object, but I would really like to be able to control how I let my car go. I accept that it needs to be replaced, but I want to be able to have a say in how I spend the last of my time with it.
And now, the end is here
And so I face the final curtain
My friend, I’ll say it clear
I’ll state my case, of which I’m certain
I’ve lived a life that’s full
I traveled each and ev’ry highway
And more, much more than this, I did it my way